Well...apparently I am still alive, despite my lack of updates. However, if I stand by my belief that living and Life is essential experience, then I am dead because I have none in memory. Oh well...
I might as well continue my fun filled journals of fun and adventure. It is the night before Halloween where I am...and since I live on a campus, I can hear the screams of all the parties and drunk people in my building. Ah yes...I am no longer on campus. I now live in an apartment some distance away from the campus. It is cheap-ish. More on that later.
I am in my third semester in college. I still am still attempting to get into the college of engineering. Don't ask why, I don't even know anymore. However, I am continuing my studies in Japanese, which actually is very enjoyable. While it took some time, I am now actually starting to speak and understand others proficiently. It feels nice. I hope to finish up a Spanish major in the next 2 years, so that will be 2 solid languages under my belt. If things go well, I will start Arabic next year. Also, I am taking fencing and am very much loving it. Fencing is a great sport and is so much fun! I have my own blade and outfit and am actually rather good at it...at least relative to my class.
Now for my other classes...not that great. Physics I am doing shitty in. I had to drop of physics last semester because I was going to fail it, and here the chances of me failing it again are extremely high. The problem is I can't drop it due to the fact that it would put me below my minimum credit load. Yeah...it sucks. Though I am confused on how I can understand Linear Algebra better than basic physics...
Ah yes. I am also taking Linear Algebra and other advanced math classes. While the classes are rather simple to me and I actually take much enjoyment from them, I have fallen behind due to the fact of not attending lectures. This week and upcoming week is me trying to catch up. Fun...
I just noticed that my first journal was the day after Halloween. I found it amusing that I am now writing the day before Halloween. Huh...
Anyways...what else is there in my Life? I did attend Geek Kon last week. It surprised me in that it actually kicked ass. I had tons of fun hanging out with people and just joking around. It would have been nice to exchange a few numbers or make some actual friends, but I gave on that years ago.
Also at the Geekkon, I entered Steam Century! I have recently gotten in Steam Punk! For those who do not know, Steam Punk is a genre that is like the old victorian days, but with more goth and punk edge in it. Think "The Time Traveler" by H.G. Wells. That is a rather solid example. You could always search DA for it. Anyway, I decided to go the more businessman look. I have a gray tailcoat and a gray vest. There is a purple sash like thing on my nech and I have purple glasses on. My hair is slicked back and I have a cane. I make an awesome villainous steam punk persona. My persona's name is Sire Alexander Luthern Black.
Yeah...Geek Kon was a great outing. I do believe I will be going to Daishocon this year. I have managed to find a ride and cheap lodging, so I will attend in a few weeks. It is rather close...isn't it? I will dress up again most likely.
I need a job. I am currently unemployed and the jobs around here don't seem to want to hire me, despite the applications I give them. I can last a few more months, but things are looking down. Next year, I am hoping to be a House Fellow for a dorm. Essentially it is a student in charge of a floor for student activities and fun as well as laying down the law for underage drinking. While I am not a total fan of people (in the sense that I hate people...), I think I can put it aside for some cash. If I do get the job, I get free housing, a huge food stipend, more cash to spend, and more. Of course, it is a ton of work...but I think I will do it to put some things on my resume.
I suppose this could be a moment for me to bitch about my roommates. I really don't want to, but I need to vent somewhere. To be honest, I chose to live here because the rent is dirt cheap, not out of friendliness (Although that may be why it was offered to me...). I only knew to older brother. When I moved in, I met the younger one. I never liked to older brother in the first place. Before, when I was beginning to think about how we were friends, well that was thrown out after I learned about him being a complete dumbass. Remember that I am not talking about his intelligence, but his personality and being and common sense. Mostly his common sense. I do believe that I spoke of how he wanted to pay a friend of his though college. This was before I realized that he isn't paying a damn thing. Since living here, I found out that their mother is still paying the rent for the two as well as other bills they have to deal with! This is fucking ridiculous! They are both 20 years or older and their mother is still involved in their financial life! The apartment is under her name! THe internet is under her name! The utilities as well! It is fucking pathetic.
And it just pisses me all off to all hell to see how pathetic these people actually are! Now there is nothing wrong with asking a parent for help, I love my mother to death and am definetly a mama's boy. But these fucks are essentially still living under their mothers tit! When I was trying to find out how I was to pay my portion of the rent, I found out the mother was paying the entire thing and I would have to pay her!!! This was not what I wanted! I was paying the apartment complex for the room because it belonged to them, not fucking her! I do not want her to pay for the entire thing and we compensate her back! We are adults and we will pay our own fucking bills! And it gets better! Oh shit...it gets better! After my initial shock of me paying her, she said I should just pay her sons the rent money so it could be used for groceries and stuff. From my understanding, I thought my portion would be going for groceries for the people in the apartment it was paid for. Which I thought was alright. Apparently that is not the case. Instead, the money is being pocketed by the fucking sons for whatever the hell they want and I still have to buy groceries out of my own pocket after giving them a check for some godly amount of money! Fuck me! I don't have a job, I can't afford this! They do have a job and they bring tons of food back from home because THEIR MOTHER IS STILL BUYING THEM GROCERIES!!!!! God dammit!
It just pisses me off to all hell. There is more, oh god...The icing on the cake before I rant about their so called intelligence, the cherry on top! The apartment I am in has one bedroom. It also has a large living room which was split up to two bedrooms. Now, I would have preferred to have the single bedroom since they are brothers and can put up with each other. Instead I stood down because I was essentially 3rd wheel and I didn't want to look too much like the pushy ass I am; thus I backed down and didn't bitch about sharing rooms. I figured my cost for rent would be lower due to the one brother having the single would pay a higher rent. Well...this was not the case. When speaking to mother (Yes, the mother. I couldn't even talk to the fucking inhabitants because they had no fucking idea. I had to go to their mother to get answers!) she refused to understand or acknowledge my reasoning for me to pay less rent. Now I am a cheap, but only when reasonable. My reasoning was since the younger brother had a single, he should pay more than the other two inhabitants because of that, but a good 50-60 bucks more per month. This would in turn make me pay less per month. Simple logic and I thought it made sense. No...she wouldn't even consider it. I got a whole 10 dollars off my rent bill TO HER because I have to share a room. She refused to understand that the younger brother should pay more for his single. Fuck...I hate people. Now, they did supply me with some furniture, which is nice. I dresser and a desk. I appreciate it. I was going to bring my own down here, but since they offered, I accepted. I also offered compensation, but she refused to take any. I figured it was good. Later, when I wanted the younger brother to pay more, she threw in my face the furniture they so generously lent me (despite me wanting to pay them back and me not even needing it since I was going to bring my own furniture down otherwise). The older brother tried to throw this in my face when he was telling me about how I should put more money in groceries. I believe that was a moment I let the mask slip and I showed my pissed off attitude at him when I told him to shut the fuck up about matters that (literally) doesn't concern him.
And the brothers themselves! Fucking a! The older one has just no common sense at all. He cannot see the importance of the dollar and just expects things to go his way. One day he came back in a very bad mood. He almost lost his job because he wasn't telling his boss what he was doing in the lab (I believe he works for a professor) and thus the professor believed him to be slacking. My roommate made it very clear to me that this was the professor's fault for this reason and the many *advanced* classes he was taking for another fault. Never once did he realize it was HIS fucking fault for almost losing his job and it will happen again due to the fact that he is a complete moron! On top of that, in the apartment he has many shitty quirks. I now have to hide my powdered drinks due to the fact that he drinks all the juice constantly. Whenever someone makes food or orders pizza or whatever, he expects a share, despite never cooking. He only lives on peanut butter on toast, pickles, and ramen. And for some odd reason, he never wears pants in the apartment. Now I go around shirtless, and I am not homophobic in any way, but this guy is rather ugly (he hasn't shaved or gotten a haircut for what seems like 3 years now. I have no fucking idea why he is sporting the hippie looks especially since it looks like shit on him) and there is always something unnerving when he looks over my shoulder really close to me in only underwear and a shirt.
The younger brother is in fact a few months older than me, but is essentially a spoiled little shit. He constantly argues with his older brother, always acts childish, throws tantrums,constantly needs attention (FUCK!), refuses to game with the us seriously, and just goes ahead to break rules because he can. He drinks constantly underaged and does alot of drugs. Now, I am not against any kind of drugs except those that kill on first try. Weed, dxm, salvia, alcohol I am not against and occasionally use myself especially the latter three. However, the amount this kid takes is obscene, especially when he tells us that it is safe still. he is an ignorant little shit that knows nothing about the real world. He bitches about a bad teacher alot. I tell him to shut the fuck up and deal with it because there will be alot of shitty people in life. he refuses to listen and is looking into dropping the class. He also has no experience in anything. Sure he does drugs...but talking to people? Nothing! He can't hold up small talk if his life depended on it. What is it with me attracting socially inept fucks? First Jack, then Auri, then these guys! Damn it to hell! Also, the younger brother went to geekkon as well. After the weekend, we I was relaxing in my chair when the kid came and started to tell me about his little makeout session with someone. The little fuck wanted to kiss and tell! I promptly dropped my little mask and told him to shut the fuck up and never do that again, because I absolutely hate those who kiss and tell. Little attention whores...That wasn't even his worst moment! When I got back after going home for the weekend, he offered to meet up with me since he was near where I was as I walked back to the apartment. I said fine. 3 minutes later he showed up without a shirt or jacket. The little bastard was outside in 30 degree weather with only shoes and pants and a cigar. I promptly told him he was a complete retard and ignored him for the most part on my way back to my apartment. To top things off, he got sick the next day with a cold, and when I warned him about streaking in the winter, he had the nerve to say it wasn't him going shirtless and jacketless in the cold weather the previous day! Little shit...Even better, some weeks ago he was stopped by this bum that seemed to want to sell him drugs. Now again, I am not against drugs, but some intelligence in the brain would tell you not to buy drugs on A MAIN FUCKING ROAD IN THE OPEN!!!!! Nope, the kid decided to talk to the bum. I walked away, telling him to call me later when he was done. 45 minutes later we met up again. Apparently the bum was going to refer him to the actual drug dealer...but he couldn't find him. So no drug for money exchange. I found out though, that he actually gave the bum 50 dollars!!! When I started to scold him, he claimed he didn't mind and it gave him the connections he wanted. Is he fucking retarded!!! First that shows he has no appreciation for money and 2nd, the bum was just conning him!!! The stupid little fuck.
I feel a bit better. I really needed to vent a bit, and I don't have a Fight club I can go to beat the shit of someone; thus, this journal is good enough. It is a nice cushion to scream into. I frankly do not care if it is read. Just writing it is good enough.
Anyway, I am off. I will be at Daisho con in a few weeks and Nobrandcon next april. Cheers to those who actually read this.
Listening to: Dr, Horrible's Sing along blog
Reading: Harry Potter Fanfiction
Watching: Spice and Wolf Season 2
Playing: Devil Summoner 2